Still waiting for the call

I'm still waiting for the phone call that will give me my date for surgery. It's now October and I was expecting the call by the end of August. This is the story of my life for two years and likely for the remainder of my life. I get to wait for someone to tell me something...anything...
I have a time bomb in my head.
I'll say one thing, it puts life into perspective. It's made me sort out what's important and what's not. I've also had plenty of time to create a vision of my idealistic future with children. I'm turning 36 and I've put having children on hold for this. I didn't want to put any risk onto myself and I only wanted to handle one thing at a time...but for what? I've waited since 2008 to have a family for what? I could have started years ago and still not had the surgery on my brain. I waited for nothing and I'm hoping to God that it's not too late.
I'd like an answer.